To be or not to be... selfish, that is.

Here, have a photo from a few weeks ago. 

So. 

I'm waiting. 

Aric is on his way. 

The weather is nice tonight,

so we're going on a bicycle ride! Yay!

I had a doctor's appointment today

I wasn't a huge fan of it, but...

it just means I'm closer to 

knowing what is

wrong. 

yep. 

I 

was cast 

in a show at school

the hours are insane, and I 

really don't want to be in it now that

I know the schedule. I can't do it without

getting sick. Unfortunately I have the 

lead role. I was give the opportunity

to back out if I wanted. But........

if I back out I'm afraid they're 

not going to recast and just

decide to drop the scene. 

I don't want to hurt

all my friends. 

I don't know 

what to 

do. 

I'm 

not a 

fan of this.

No sir. 

No. 

I'm

trying not

to panic. I'm trying

to keep a level head. I'm 

trying to decide what's the best

for me, and for others. The greater-good

and all that jazz. I hate that stuff sometimes. 

I just want to be selfish and back out

without caring who its going to 

affect and blah blah blah. 

But... I'm not that type

of girl. I wish I was

but.......... only.....

SOMETIMES.  

sad-face.

oh well. 

....

To

be. Or 

not to be?...

selfish that is. 

...That is my only

...question...

currently.

Anyway, 

I'm still looking

forward to my bike ride

and probably hooping adventure. 

I think it will be good. I'm pretty sure 

I should bring my camera along.

I think that's a good idea.  

Yeah. For sure. 

I will. 

Peace out pumpkins. 

Love always, 

Ash

p.s. I really want tea right now. just so everyone knows.