Well...
Here I am on the eve of the flight to Japan doing of all things, blogging.
I'm actually putting off cleaning my room which is something I know needs to happen before I go to bed but... whatever.
My feelings are super mixed at the moment.
I'm WAY excited to go to Japan (like WAY EXCITED.), I'm terrified of the flight, I'm sad because my friend really needs me right now and I'm going to be out of the country and away from internet and phone, and because I miss Mom and Aric already.
My mom and I are super close, and this is the first time I'm going to be away from her for this long without even being able to call for five minutes to say "hi, i love you, i'm having fun". So... I'm not a fan of that. Plus I wanted to spend time with her tonight, and I spent most of the day with her, but then I had to do my final project for one of my classes so for about 3 hours I was starring at the computer screen and of course now that I'm done, she's asleep. I kind of hate school sometimes.
I miss Aric because he's on a mini-vaca for the weekend and he has no reception where he is right now, so we had to say our goodbyes last night and via email this morning. Plus, this is the longest I've been away from him (with him gone before me it'll be almost two weeks), the first time I've been away from him without contact of some sort, and definitely the first time I've been away from him being my fiance.
And I'm listening to Christmas music. By myself.
I've noticed doing that, especially when you're worried and its late at night makes you sad and borderline uncomfortable. I just want to procrastinate and not clean my room until morning, but I know that will make the morning WAY more stressful than it needs to be, and it will definitely help my packing in the morning if I clean now but... I kinda just want to go to sleep so I can stop feeling alone.
Okay, I'm done being all emotional on you guys, I promise.
Like I said, I'm super excited to go to Japan, and I'm super excited to get to spend time with the other side of my family. I don't see them much, so its going to be a lot of fun :) PLUS, I MEAN COME ON ITS JAPAN, HOW CAN IT NOT BE FUN?? I'm going to take so many pictures its going to be stupid. My computer is going to blow up. I need to buy more memory cards in the morning. I forgot about that.... *facepalm*. I'm going to be shopping (DUH) while i'm in Japan.... I'm mostly looking for something to wear in the engagement photos... maybe a skirt? I got a rockin' sweater I can wear in them. Oh gosh I love it. It has like... a bustle almost. Win. Plus its grey. Perfect, my favorite color. (not actually true.)
I guess I'm going to go for the night. I'll be back in about two week with lots and lots of photos. Hopefully the benadryl will make my flight a very nice, restful one. Oh gosh.
Au revoir mes amis!!!
xoxoxoxo
Ash
